That is the question i ask but i dont know the answer. 
I want to be happy but every day i think “why should i bother?” my friends want nothing to do with me and im sick of me having to contact them for them to talk to me. If i didnt contact them then they would never contact me. Its like im making all the effort but at the end of the day i still feel like shit cos i feel guilty for things i havent even done.
Sometimes i think everyone would be better off if i wasnt around. I doubt anyone would notice if disappeared
Meh
Anyway not much else to talk about really. My new laptop arrived. Cant use it yet as i dont have all the software on it so im using 2 laptops until i get the money together. The business is on its way to being open. Check out the website…though its not up and running yet lol http://www.barktastic.co.uk
