My name is Samantha, but everyone either calls me Sam or Sammie. I was born on November 11th 1987 – that makes me 22! :P .
I’m 5ft 6in (I think), something round about that! I have dirty blonde hair (just longer than shoulder length), and I have blue eyes.
I’m very shy, with no self confidence… I’m alright once I get to know someone, but I have to have known them a loooong time before I can talk a lot to them.
I’m the middle child :( I have 2 brothers. One older than me (Simon) and one younger (Steven). At home I’m a loud mouth, who swears all the time – you wouldn’t know it’s me if you see me out like at school! I’m always worrying and I get confused easily – and I mean easily! lol.
I was born in England, but moved up to Scotland when I was nearly 8. I was bullied A LOT when I went to the Academy, mostly cos I was English and that I don’t stick up for myself!
I had a weekend job in town nearby (Livingston), that was working in a pet shop – Pets @ Home. It was an alright job but I have back problems and working there didn’t help. The people there are ok but the bitching that goes on is scary! eek! I worked there from 28th Feb 2004 to 30th March 2006.
In April 2006, me and my eldest brother Simon hit the States (USA), to go backpacking. It was amazing seeing all the sights, it was definitely worth the risks, as most people might never see what I did. From it I gained confidence in myself – don’t know how long that will last though -, I got an outlook on life that I’d never seen before, I don’t know if that’s bad or good!
In September 2006 I started college, I got to Oatridge to study a HNC in Animal Care. Its lots of fun but also a lot of hard work. I then went back in September 2007 to do the HND. I finished in June 2008. I don’t know yet if I’ll go to Uni, depends if I decide what I want to do with my life lol. I might go do some more travelling :)
I currently work full time for my mum and dad, helping them run their business. It can be boring at times but I don’t mind.
I’ve also lost all the confidence I gained while travelling in USA/Canada. Think it’s from the amount of guys treating me like shit lol. I don’t have much of a bright outlook on life at the moment haven’t done for about 6 years now) To me I don’t deserve to be happy or deserve help in getting better. All I want is to feel loved and have a family but I know it’s never going to happen. :( Hopefully one year ill be better as every year so far just turns out to be rubbish and even more depressing, while all my friends seem to have everything I want :( (I hate being jealous but I really want to have some of the things they have)
Now I want to move on with my life and think of my future and what that will bring.
A new Career??….A new love life??…..A whole new me???
….Suppose I’m just going to have to wait and see! :D
UPDATED: 2010 Now happily engaged to Nick who i met on Match.com. Our wedding is 15th Sep 2012.