Not much has been going on really. Still working away, the dog walking business is going strong. So thats good. Its lots of hard work, dont think my body is use to all the excerise lol. I feel like an old lady! lol

Toby has been good, not has one of his “episodes” for 2 months now. On a bad note Lilly had to get put to sleep so RIP Lilly. Only have one rabbit now

Not much else has been happening, been working and catching up with friends. Not got time for anything else haha.

Yes its 3.11am…im up cos toby is up barking so im sitting downstairs with him. Ive been up since 12.50am…though i only went to bed at 11pm so i havent had that much sleep. I guess im angry at toby but i know i shouldnt be. Its not his fault…well it is but it isnt at the same time lol.

Dad is downstairs too as he says i should just ignore toby and go back to sleep, and he said i have to feel guilty for him being up all night too. I have told him countless times to go back to sleep, not much i can do there.

So im trying to find things to do to keep myself going. Got another 4 hours (ish) till people start getting up. Ive changed my myspace layout and added new info, ive checked emails, websites….not much more i can do lol. its werid how im wide awake even though im tired lol. I feel really sick though…probs cos my body doesnt know what the fuck is going on.

Anyway whats been happening….not much. Still getting Barktastic on the go…doing flyers, walking dogs, so its all good. I didnt know if setting up a business with Sam wood be a good idea as i didnt want to ruin the friendship but it seems to be ok, she puts up with me and still goes to the cinema etc with me. Hopefully i wont jinx it lol. Think Sam is taking one of her dogs to meet McKenzie today so there will be 2 massive dogs to try and handle lol. Should be fun. I had to walk McKenzie by myself on Sunday (well dad came along to make sure i didnt end up in the canal – which i didnt lol) and it went ok apart from a dog chasing us, which dad eventually managed to get it away from us.

Ermmm…..thats about it lol. Nothing too exciting. Need to go find something else to do now lol. ah well

Dont actually know what to write lol. Not much has been going on…well nothing exciting anyway lol Dont know if i have mentioned about Toby before?! He has senile dementia (losing his marbles as the vet put it) not much we can do, ive bought a diffuser that plugs into the wall it sends off a hormone that calms him its pretty expensive but it makes him sleep through the night. Well he has kept us up one night since we have had it but i had just put a new refil in that day so i dont know if that was something to do with it. But anyway normally he barks, crys, throws himself into doors at night at wont go to sleep, he always does the toilet in his room. he also has another signs on this senile dementia but they arent as bad. I forgot was sleep was (though i still sleep pretty bad cos i think he will wake up etc lol)

….ermmm…work…well we have one customer so far, he is only a puppy but he is up to my hip! he is bloody massive and very strong. ive had to grab onto fences to stop him pulling me over lol. Sunday will be the first time i will have to walk him by myself normally Sam is there and we take it in turns holding the lead. Anyone fancy coming with me? lol. Ill be so nervous on Sunday lol. Ill end up in the canal lol.

Not much else has happened. Bought the book Marley and Me as Sam said read the book before we see the film. So now i just have to read it…should have got the audio book lmao! Cant stand reading im terrible at it lol. Got a long list of things that i need to buy etc. So far its:

- Mobile Upgrade
- Run for the rabbits
- Holiday (need to pay over £500 for it)
- Pillows
- Tobys vacinations and also worming tablets
- McFly tickets
- Mothers Day stuff

and then i have my normal bills to pay for. Going shopping tonight for some new clothes and some stuff from Boots too. Its all money money money. Might forget about the pillows and just put up with a sore neck from sleeping on lumpy pillows (thats what i get for buying cheap pillows!!)

Wow this turned out to be a long post…oops. Ah well once i start talking i cant stop lol!

That is the question i ask but i dont know the answer. I want to be happy but every day i think “why should i bother?” my friends want nothing to do with me and im sick of me having to contact them for them to talk to me. If i didnt contact them then they would never contact me. Its like im making all the effort but at the end of the day i still feel like shit cos i feel guilty for things i havent even done.

Sometimes i think everyone would be better off if i wasnt around. I doubt anyone would notice if disappeared

Meh

Anyway not much else to talk about really. My new laptop arrived. Cant use it yet as i dont have all the software on it so im using 2 laptops until i get the money together. The business is on its way to being open. Check out the website…though its not up and running yet lol http://www.barktastic.co.uk

well i think it is lol. So Happy New Year

I hit rock bottom on the 1st Jan lol. Was such a bad day, i felt so alone & depressed. Im slowly trying to drag myself back up, but i always seem to hit rock bottom again. Sometimes i just feel like giving up

But anyway there isnt much to update on. I bought a new laptop which should be arriving soon. I wont be able to use it that much to start with as i have to buy all the software for it…which will take a few months to save up money for them lol. So ill transfer all my personal stuff across and keep my websites on this laptop until i can get all the software installed and working. Its got 320GB of space! i only have about 60GB on this one so im gonna have LOTS of space to add new stuff on…yay!

Also me and my friend are currently setting up a new business, so we are just sorting through the paperwork, getting banks set up, and websites etc and then hopefully we can get everything up and running in the next month or so lol. Got a massive list to work our way through.

Anyway bye for now lol

until its 2009! eeek! lol

Its amazing ive done 2 updates in 2 days! lol\n\nAnyway it was just to say ive moved the gallery now (been uploading the pics today) so thats done and i also went back and edited posts that had errors in them (from when i used cutenews)

So thats Crimson-Moon and Mysterious-Angel up to date. Hopefully over time ill move Crimson-Moon to a new host that doesnt cost as much money and then i know im saving money! haha

Anyway Happy New Year when it comes

Hi everyone,

Well thats nearly 2008 over and done with…can you believe it? its went so quickly!

Its been a pretty shit year for me, at some points ive thought whats the point in being here..i still do think that most of the time. Im hoping 2009 will be a better year for me and im going to try my hardest not to give up.

But anyway i have paid hosting for crimson-moon.org and im running out of space. So ive moved the gallery over to Mysterious Angel This means the gallery has its own domain and lots of space for my fanlistings and the personal site (probs too much space lol)

Anyway i hope everyone has a nice New Year and i hope 2009 being everyone lots of happiness!

Hey! Just a quick post to say i have added the pictures to the gallery of me and my family on holiday

Had a good time though i got some injuries while i was away lol. Typical!

Anyway spent the past 2 days taking the wallpaper off my walls in my bedroom as im redoing the room. Spent like £400 already and i still have paint to buy! lol. Expensive stuff! Still havent finished taking the wallpaper down but ive hurt my back so i had to stop

So im off tomorrow morning. It feels like im always away but i went away April time and came back after a day as dad fell ill. Then i went away to Ireland for a few days. So now im off to Cyprus with my mum, dad and lil brother. Should be fun. Hopefully it will be nice and relaxing!

Though saying that i always worry about my pets, my sites and so i never get a chance to relax. Plus the bloody plane journey is like 5 hours long and i hate flying lol. Im terrible!

Anyway back in a week! Im sure ill take lots of pics

Hey! Went to Ireland on Monday and came back late Wednesday night. Was a good trip. It was a business trip that Tourism Ireland organised for UK Inbound businesses. So my dad sent me. We went to Belfast on Monday, then Tuesday we made our way to Derry (doing Giants Causeway etc) and Wednesday we went round Derry and then went back to the airport where i had to wait 7 hours cos my flight got delayed

Heres a few pictures (more in the gallery)